She feels like she has been talking about it, way more than she's ever been inclined to talk about her problems naturally. When Pidge has a problem, she does something about it.
Somehow, talking just doesn't feel like doing anything about it, no matter how many people have told her otherwise.
On the other hand, this isn't really doing anything either, even if this is nice. Maybe she should quit trying to justify herself and enjoy all the this she can, right in the moment.
So she sits with him for a few minutes, enjoying the closeness, watching the stars and forgetting the time. (OK, she can't stop herself from timing out about 6 and a half minutes before she speaks again, but it felt longer.)
"I just...I keep trying to analyze what happened. I guess part of me feels like I should have been able to do better somehow." She's glad she's leaning against Dipper, because otherwise she'd curl in on herself. "I know that's not true. I've gone over it over and over again but...I dunno, it's like there's a GOTO command somewhere in my brain that I misplaced the parameters for."
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She feels like she has been talking about it, way more than she's ever been inclined to talk about her problems naturally. When Pidge has a problem, she does something about it.
Somehow, talking just doesn't feel like doing anything about it, no matter how many people have told her otherwise.
On the other hand, this isn't really doing anything either, even if this is nice. Maybe she should quit trying to justify herself and enjoy all the this she can, right in the moment.
So she sits with him for a few minutes, enjoying the closeness, watching the stars and forgetting the time. (OK, she can't stop herself from timing out about 6 and a half minutes before she speaks again, but it felt longer.)
"I just...I keep trying to analyze what happened. I guess part of me feels like I should have been able to do better somehow." She's glad she's leaning against Dipper, because otherwise she'd curl in on herself. "I know that's not true. I've gone over it over and over again but...I dunno, it's like there's a GOTO command somewhere in my brain that I misplaced the parameters for."