It's kind of nice how Grif doesn't seem to care about the fact the shoulder he's laying on doesn't have an arm attached to it. There are a lot of ways that Grif makes Rich feel like he's still whole, despite all the evidence to the contrary.
But when he mentions Nita, Rich draws in a deep breath and lets it out.
"Uh. It's not really -" He wonders if he should bring down the moment, but he also...
He also wants Grif to know this, because...
"It's not really something you'd have to worry about. I wrote her a letter. For when I see her again." A pause. "Breaking up."
Which...still feels like the right thing to do.
"I was already different. I pulled her from out of time and I was different from the way she remembered, because of the war. A lot more serious. And that was something we were working around, all that lost time, and the changes, but now..."
Now he's not just a little dinged up from the war. Now he's broken. Now he's a different man, carrying around a whole lot of damage and existential despair that he has to keep at bay.
"I'm not the person I was. Even if...even if I can act like it sometimes, what's going on in my head, that's not -- I'm not him. And I still have some parts of him in me, but it's different enough..."
He works his jaw.
"I just need to start over. Maybe that means once I see her again, we can take it from the top, but whoever I end up with has to meet me where I am first, and get used to...to all the baggage. To who I am now. And see if it can work from there."
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But when he mentions Nita, Rich draws in a deep breath and lets it out.
"Uh. It's not really -" He wonders if he should bring down the moment, but he also...
He also wants Grif to know this, because...
"It's not really something you'd have to worry about. I wrote her a letter. For when I see her again." A pause. "Breaking up."
Which...still feels like the right thing to do.
"I was already different. I pulled her from out of time and I was different from the way she remembered, because of the war. A lot more serious. And that was something we were working around, all that lost time, and the changes, but now..."
Now he's not just a little dinged up from the war. Now he's broken. Now he's a different man, carrying around a whole lot of damage and existential despair that he has to keep at bay.
"I'm not the person I was. Even if...even if I can act like it sometimes, what's going on in my head, that's not -- I'm not him. And I still have some parts of him in me, but it's different enough..."
He works his jaw.
"I just need to start over. Maybe that means once I see her again, we can take it from the top, but whoever I end up with has to meet me where I am first, and get used to...to all the baggage. To who I am now. And see if it can work from there."